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i feel inordinately depressed.
its hasn't been a good week, or month, or year, for that matter.
tonight is halloween and i am listening to the kids shouting "Trick or Treat!!" at the door and it is making me oh so depressed.
also i can here my mom talking in the next room about a kid who drowned.
uuuuuhhhghghgghghgg.

So nanowrimo is starting tomorrow. Should i do it? i've been writing a lot lately (not here) but im also really busy. ok no excuses. i should decide.

ps: His Dark Materials is addicting

pps: my parents are trying to make me hand out candy. Its so depressing all i can do is wordlessly hold out the bowl. They (the kids) will probably think i am mentally deficient, when really I'm just jealous.